Its been awhile since i've updated my blog.And there are alot of things thats running around my head.Like my fear of grownin up.I fear i might lose all of my craziness in me.A close friend told me that,even if u do grow up,you will never lose anything that is part of you.She told me,that i look unhappy..maybe i am unhappy deep down inside.People can never tell what you are feeling,unless they have a special sensing power.She even told me,that i have to be me..act like yourself,instead of acting the way ppl wants you to act.I'm always me,never acting or trying to please anyone.I dont really give a fuck to what people think of me.Maybe,its time for me to really grow up and start thinking more about other people instead of juz me and even about life.That is one of my fears,growning up and losing all of my craziness.Sometimes,my inner voice tells me that i'm not ready to grow up in the sense of being more serious and more mature.I dont know why,but maybe not now,maybe when the right time comes..i'll change for the better.But i must never lose my inner devil,hahaha.I know my life maybe complicated but thats life.And another thing,for me life is so complicated.There will always be ups and downs in your life.I dont really understand life,for me its just complicated and it has alot of ups and downs.Maybe i will never know what life really means for now..but sooner or later i hope i will understand the meaning of life.
~Debbielicious~