28th July was the worst day of my life,like seriously. Went to my hubby's house and spend the night with him 2 days before. I thought he would never ask me to go over since he already saw me like 2 days ago. But i was wrong. At first,he went out with Nick to The Castle for shisha and food,then headed to see an apartment. Since he'll be movin' to a new place with his parents. As for me,i was being a good girl. Coz dad took my car out to visit my mom in Mont Kiara. By this time,he was already in Barkath with Nick. He even called me and ask if i was headin' over,but i told him i couldn't. Still waitin' for dad to come home.
By the time my dad came home,he was about to leave. So,i decided to head out and buy cigarette's.
Went online and talk to him. Told him that i couldn't sleep due to the fact that something was missin' (and that is HIM .. obviously ! ). And he even told me that he and Nick were supposed to head to Ikea to buy boxes,and he ask me to join as well. So i told him that i would be arrivin' to his place early,just to hang out. But instead of sayin' "Ok",he said "Wanna come over now ? Haha".
I was shock but at the same time,happy as fuck ! ( happy child,happy child ). And i just reply him but sayin' "c ya in abit <3" (hahahaha .. poker face gonna down the drain). Can't stop smilin' and gigglin' like a lil kid. Oh yea,and even jumpin' around the house ( Wtf ?! ).
Didn't manage to go to Ikea but i manage to look at the new apartment and spend more quality time with my dear hubbycakes.And we even had fun..loved every single moment.
Best moment : Is when i was sayin' goodnight to him,i said "Goodnight pacat" (some kinda of leech) and to my horror he replied "Goodnight bitch" (just imagine the look on my face wei .. ),but it was all in the sake of havin' fun. We laugh like hell before we fell asleep. Oh,and he even said "Move bitch..get out the way,get out the way bitch" (got burnt for the 2nd time.. =.=',he was singin' to the song by Ludacris). Again,we ended up laughin'.
Best moments of my life,that i would always cherish. So,from a worst day ever turned out to be the best day of my life ! All thanks to my Hubbycakes. I love you sayang ..and i'll forever will.
"It's not about what's the plan.. It's what behind it ..maybe i'm the one paranoid here but i know tht u all avoiding something...please don't talk to me now cause my mood is imbalance... I scare I do something I regret..ciao ".
Well,he thought we were avoidin something,which is true. But its something that he doesn't really know the full story. Send him a facebook inbox message. Hopefully he would understand.
Yesterday he was behavin' in a manner which i didn't like. It hurt me to the max to see him being this way to me. And it made me cry. My mind was over the place,i couldn't think straight.
He didn't want to tell me where he was ..he was being stubborn.
Doesn't he know how fragile i am ?
I've been thru so many heartache and failed relationship which left me devastated.
Finally,he text me tellin' that he was in Barkath. I didn't reply,then he called. At that time,i was cryin like fuck in the living room,ALONE. Wishin he was there to comfort me. But he wasn't.
I had things planned out for us,which failed. Due to the problem we were goin' thru.
Ended up,i went out. I needed a drive. I know its stupid to go to the bank around 4 am. It's like a sign for people to rob me.
I went to barkath to pick a friend up,and she followed me to the bank. I just needed a drive to calm my thoughts down.
Went back to barkath to drop my friend off. She told me to park my car. I lepak for awhile. She told me to go over and said hi to him,but i didn't want too.
I sat down mindin' my own business. Then,i slowly turned around to see him.
He was standin' and lightin' a cigarette. Thought he was headin' to the bathroom,but he was headin' to my table. He sat next to me. We both smiled.
But the tension is still there,i could feel it.
Before he left,he came again to my table,said goodbye to everybody. And he kiss me goodbye.
I stayed abit longer,then i got a text from him,tellin' me not to stay out so late. But at that time,i was headin' back home. And i even decided to call him.
Things is better now,but the tension is still there. And things aren't the same like before. Don't know if its just me or i think way too much.
Here's to hopefully wishin' that the tension between us is gone. I want things to be back to normal.
[ FML ~]
Enuff Said .. muahahahahaha . =p
7/07/2010 - A night that got me nervous,worried and stressful. It was suppose to be like a average night filled with laughter,shouts (due to the world cup fever),BlackJack and jokes. But this day wasn't the same. As usual,i headed to Barkath to watch the football match (Spain vs Germany). So i called my hubby to ask if he has already reach Barkath. But sadly,he was with Alex in a pub,drinkin. But thank god,a friend of mine was there to keep my company. When it was 2:25 am,Sam and his friend came back for the match,and sam was kinda tipsy. He had 2 beer towers.
I wasn't in the mood due to a certain flirtatious bitch that got me piss. Thankfully,my friend got a call from a friend. And since she doesn't know where the place is,i told my friend that we would go and lead her to Barkath. As i was reversin' my car. Sam came to my car and ask me where we are goin,told him that we are goin' to pick Jen's friend up and bring her here. Well,that was a mistake to leave the place.
Wasn't more than 10 minutes,we arrived back to Al-Barkath,parked behind the alley and to my horror saw Sam talkin' to some malay punks. Rumors has it,that the so called malay gansters wanted to whack sam due to don't know what reason.
I was terrified for his safety and i didn't want anything to happen to him.Sam told me,that they weren't keen on him for a long time. So,they are tryin' to find a reason to fight (how stupid can they be?! seriously). I don't know they were talkin' about,but when my car parked. Sam told them to talk somewhere else,coz i was around.
Sam was tryin' to settle the problem while that dumb malay fuck kept on sayin " sekarang you mau gaduh ! Panggil kau punya gang dari meja engkau .. ". In my head i was thinkin' what a dumbfuck he is,people wanna settle the problem while he kept on askin' Sam to fight. One word ASSHOLE ! . After that,Sam came back tellin' us that he is waiting for that dumbfuck's brother to come. Then Alex showed up,tellin' Sam to go back. But Sam refuse to go home. Alex told me "Debbie,if you love him,take him home now. I would talk to them and try to settle the problem". Then Sam and Alex were talkin' in Arabic. Finally,Sam decided to go home.
Reason why,coz Alex told him that i was there. Thats why he agreed to let me take him home. In the car,we started talkin' and he was tellin' what had happen. And he said that he couldn't really do much coz i was there,they might use me to get to him. And he even said "if something happens to you,how would i live? think properly .." (i was touched and felt happy when he said that ..). I was slowly tearin' up.I didn't want anything to happen to him. I was worried about his safety and his life.
After sendin' me home,he told me to go home and not go back to Barkath.Which i promise him i wouldnt,coz if he finds out i went back,he would go back to Barkath as well. When i reach home,i text him. Telling him not to do anything stupid. And then he called me (hehehe .. i'm a happy child). Not only once but 3 times,i think. Ended up,i was gettin' ready to head to his place to spend the night.
* Our country has a so called sayin' " 1 Malaysia or satu Malaysia" rite ?? Then what the fuck is this ? Aren't we supposed to live in harmony,side by side. And not findin' fights coz you hated that person from the very beginnin. Seriously,Satu Malaysia my ass ! With people like them,uneducated and workless. Malaysia will never develope and Malaysia can kiss the tourist and international businesses goodbye ! *
I'm not here to tell you how our vacation went,but to introduce you guys to him . Name Sam Toramae. His is mix Thai and Moroccan (good mix right ?! ..hehe).Met him in Barkath. And he is younger than me,but i don't give a shit. Age is just a fuckin' number to me. I love him to bits and i can never get enough of him (which is a good thing). From friends we became close. Went through a hell loads of drama just to be together ( and i ain't kiddin' ).
He is not like your ordinary type of guy. He has mood swings,which i'm gettin' use to (but i still love him no matter what). Love his character and his attitude. Love the way he protects me. And when i'm away from the table to conference with the girls,he never fails to check up on me to make sure i'm safe (aww .. i'm touched and i'm smilin' like fuck). Like just now,when i went to conference with the girls in the car..he came to check up on me but at the same time,he scared the livin' shit out of me.
He loves to shisha everytime we had out. And his flavors are always the best. I learn from the best =). He is addicted to Blackjack (actually i'm addicted to it as well). Currently still studyin' ( i'm not gonna tell you where,coz you bitches might just stalk him and i swear i would kill you .. and i ain't kiddin'). He always smells good . Everytime he enters the car,he has that smell which drives me crazy and want to smell him more. Love the way his hair smells (his hair spray la fuckers !).
Love the way he smiles.He has a smile to die for. He never fails to make my day with all his nonsense and his sense of humor . And his funny faces. Love the way he dress up,esp. when he is headin' to college. Love the way he kiss me and says "Love you too". And the way he holds my hand and hugs me in the movies. Love his sneaky ways when it comes to payin' certain stuff. Love it when he is the "banker" when we're playin' BlackJack. He would either be stress (funny sort of stress) or a show off when he is winnin' money. He is good at psycho-in people when it comes to BlackJack (well,mostly me). Loves it when he jokes with me and calls me a blonde.
Love receivin' his text messages .. (and i've break the record of havin' the most sms in my phone).Love it when he sings to his tunes esp. 3oh3 "Touchin on my". He would have that look which makes me melt and makes me smile,and i can't stop starin' at him. Oh,and when he is singin' he would stare at me with those eyes (argh .. i'm meltin,i'm meltin).I love when its just the 2 of us,spendin' quality time together. And whenever i'm in his place,he would hug me in bed and start to sayang my hair.And he would hug me tight. And he would always put his arm behind my head just so i can lie on it (and this is where i take advantage of smellin' him like fuck .. hehe. i know i'm digustin,so sue my cute lil ass ).
Love to see him sleep (only once..). And love to see him with the morning look (where his hair would be messy,and he will look so freakin' adorable).He is a Trance freak (which he is slowly infectin' me with Trance) and a music lover.Love his thinkin' (very mature for his age,and i'm impress).What can i say,i just love everything about him. I told my friends that i could never ever lose him from my life,coz he means the world to me. Trust me when i say that,my heart would break if i lose him and the reason of me living would mean nothing without him in my life.
To my dearest Sam,
If you're readin' this..just so you know that i love you more than words can say. And i can never ever lose you.You mean the world to me.And i'm lucky to have you in my life,lucky that you're mine.
I will love you forever and always.
Love always and forever,
Debbie ~
I will cherish the memories that we shared together and remember how it all began for the rest of my life..and this i swear .
Fyi : He is mine for the keepin..so put that in your thick skull bitches ! booyah ..
