Introducin' Sam Toramae .. The Love Of My Life (For Real ! )

This picture was taken in Sunset Bistro,Penang. Where we had a short vacation. We had good times and good memories in Penang. We even watched "The Killers" in Gurney Plaza. And to honestly tell you,it was our first trip to Penang,which made us a fuckin' tourist. Oh,and sam was very bitchy in Penang. Kept on Sayin " I'm a tourist !". Which never fail to crack me up.

I'm not here to tell you how our vacation went,but to introduce you guys to him . Name Sam Toramae. His is mix Thai and Moroccan (good mix right ?! ..hehe).Met him in Barkath. And he is younger than me,but i don't give a shit. Age is just a fuckin' number to me. I love him to bits and i can never get enough of him (which is a good thing). From friends we became close. Went through a hell loads of drama  just to be together ( and i ain't kiddin' ).

He is not like your ordinary type of guy. He has mood swings,which i'm gettin' use to (but i still love him no matter what). Love his character and his attitude. Love the way he protects me. And when i'm away from the table to conference with the girls,he never fails to check up on me to make sure i'm safe (aww .. i'm touched and i'm smilin' like fuck). Like just now,when i went to conference with the girls in the car..he came to check up on me but at the same time,he scared the livin' shit out of me.

He loves to shisha everytime we had out. And his flavors are always the best. I learn from the best =). He is addicted to Blackjack (actually i'm addicted to it as well). Currently still studyin' ( i'm not gonna tell you where,coz you bitches might just stalk him and i swear i would kill you .. and i ain't kiddin'). He always smells good . Everytime he enters the car,he has that smell which drives me crazy and want to smell him more. Love the way his hair smells (his hair spray la fuckers !).

Love the way he smiles.He has a smile to die for. He never fails to make my day with all his nonsense and his sense of humor . And his funny faces. Love the way he dress up,esp. when he is headin' to college. Love the way he kiss me and says "Love you too". And the way he holds my hand and hugs me in the movies. Love his sneaky ways when it comes to payin' certain stuff. Love it when he is the "banker" when we're playin' BlackJack. He would either be stress (funny sort of stress) or  a show off when he is winnin' money. He is good at psycho-in people when it comes to BlackJack (well,mostly me). Loves it when he jokes with me and calls me a blonde.

Love receivin' his text messages .. (and i've break the record of  havin' the most sms in my phone).Love it when he sings to his tunes esp. 3oh3 "Touchin on my". He would have that look which makes me melt and makes me smile,and i can't stop starin' at him. Oh,and when he is singin' he would stare at me with those eyes (argh .. i'm meltin,i'm meltin).I love when its just the 2 of us,spendin' quality time together. And whenever i'm in his place,he would hug me in bed and start to sayang my hair.And he would hug me tight. And he would always put his arm behind my head just so i can lie on it (and this is where i take advantage of smellin' him like fuck .. hehe. i know i'm digustin,so sue my cute lil ass ).

Love to see him sleep (only once..). And love to see him with the morning look (where his hair would be messy,and he will look so freakin' adorable).He is a Trance freak (which he is slowly infectin' me with Trance) and a music lover.Love his thinkin' (very mature for his age,and i'm impress).What can i say,i just love everything about him. I told my friends that i could never ever lose him from my life,coz he means the world to me. Trust me when i say that,my heart would break if i lose him and the reason of me living would mean nothing without him in my life.

To my dearest Sam,
If you're readin' this..just so you know that i love you more than words can say. And i can never ever lose you.You mean the world to me.And i'm lucky to have you in my life,lucky that you're mine.
I will love you forever and always.

Love always and forever,
Debbie ~

I will cherish the memories that we shared together and remember how it all began for the rest of my life..and this i swear .

Fyi : He is mine for the keepin..so put that in your thick skull bitches ! booyah ..

Weirdest Dream Ever .. Fml ~

I had the weirdest dream ever.Which was kind of the reason why i only had like an hour of sleep,and yet,i'm still fuckin' active but at the same time,i'm stonin'.
I tend to get alot of weird dreams which causes me to think alot.And it tend to screw up my judgment and the way i see things.So yea,fuck my brains!
The dream started out like an ordinary dream,and suddenly the tables turned.I was being cheated by my bf with a close friend of mine (fuck my fuckin' life).I found out that they have been flirtin' behind my back for about a month.He confess to her that he regretted being with me and choosin' me,and that his true feelings belong to her (what the fuck wei !).My friend being the noble one,told me everything he told her,but yet,she had intentions of being with him too.
I acted normal when i was with him,but inside my heart i was hurt.He didn't want to tell it to me,i don't know why in hell.I couldn't take it much longer i just drove off and he was havin' a puzzled look on his face,wonderin' why i drove off without tellin' him where i was goin'. And so,my so called friend of mine told him that she had a talk with me,tellin' me everything he said to her.
He kept on callin' me but i didn't pick up his phone nor my other friends who called.And in my dreams,i went away to somewhere to disappear and clear my mind of what had happened.Thinkin' why did this happen? was it my fault that he fell for my friend? .I still love him with all my heart and losin' him killed my reason of living.And when i was away,he was textin' me everyday..worried of me (then you shouldn't have said what you have said babeh). After a few months,i return back to Malaysia.Head to the place where it all began.He wasn't there,but she was.They were all shock to see me and see that i've lost so much weight,that i look lethargic . I told my friends not to tell him i was here,but one of them did. He quickly called his friend to pick him up and head straight to where i was.
When he saw me and i saw him.Tears begun rollin' down my cheeks and he was just standin' there lookin at me. He ran to my and gave to most tightest embrace ever and at the same time he was kissin' my forehead.He fell to his kness and apologize for what he did .. then i woke up.Fuck my dream ! Seriously,fuck my dream !
I didn't find out how was the endin'. I guess we got back together.
I swear this kind of dreams,can make me cry in reality.Lord !.