What's wrong with me ?!

Argghh .. What's wrong with me ? like seriously. I'm finally happy and in love and i'm in a relationship with someone who was a close friend to me at first. And now,it looks like i'm ruining it. Fuck !
Yes,i'm a jealous person and yes,i have a jealousy issue. Thanks to all my past failed relationships due to that fact they were in a relationship,but they were flirtin' behind my back. Yes,Thank you to all my past mutha-fuckers ex'es. Fuck you !
I'm can't deal with guys who has alot of girl-friends. And i can't take it even more when the guy tend to listen to their girl-friends than the girlfriend. My confident level ain't high ok. I know how i look compare to the other girls out there. Arghhhhhhh ... fuck my life. Seriously. And i've got trust issue. Its hard for me to trust someone due to the fact that i'm scared of gettin' hurt,gettin' played or cheated on.
I just don't want to go back to that stage,that hurt stage. Hate being there and i never ever want to go back there. Never ever wanna shed a tear unless its a tear of joy. I know its all part of life experiences but fuck it. I've been through enough and i don't think that i would be strong enough to get back on my feet and start all over. Enough is enough. Can't go back to that unhappy phase in my life again.
Finally,i found someone who love me for who i am. And i don't wanna screw it up !

Debbie,Don't screw it up ..seriously !
Fuck.My.Life !